You know what to say...

Love
You know what to say, and you know that you mean it.
I can still hear our conversations in the dark, and I smile every time. I smile everytime and I cry just a bit each time as well.
"It's refreshing to hear your heartbeat again... it's beating faster now."
"If it is, it's all your fault."

It sounds silly, but I have always dreamed of laying in bed, laughing, cuddling, just plain loving... and I got it to come true.
The problem with that is... it's not true every single day. Now my heart is beating faster and faster, and it's all your fault.

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Frustration
So I manage to take some awesome photos in my spare time (hopefully finances will start brewing in). Anywho, when I get totally miffed by good friends of mine, only for someone else to get the well-deserved promotion I've been desperately seeking for, for their average photos, I get bummed and hurt. Not cool, it's like going behind my back.
It's the only thing I have, since the huge part of me that mattered is states away (yes, it's true.), my best friends are on the other side of the state, and the one I live with is a mere stranger now, I have only one thing I am proud of.
Friends are very important to me and when I get hurt like that, it complicates things.
But the more I talked about it over the course of a few days, I figured how utterly ridiculous it sounded.
Call it a girl thing, I don't know. I can overreact sometime, I think I have that right.

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Happiness
Hanging out with good friends more and more, and creating some awesome memories and inside jokes... well, it deems good for my health, me thinks. And the more I have fun with the current friends that make me smile, the more it doesn't upset me that my unreliable best friend continues to disappoint me.
I went to the bowling alley last night to an event called the Hot Rodder's Ball. I drank myself retarded, got dizzy, played a game for free, hugged a lot of people, took a lot of pictures, and saw some awesome people I haven't seen in awhile.
ALL THE WHILE, I started up a band with a singer friend of mine. Go figure! We'll see how this works out.

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Perseverance
So I'm going to research some classes at a couple of the schools here this week (for sure, I'm not just saying it this time)... I'm not sure what for, but I gotta get goin' on that aspect and figure out what the hell I want to do. I love going to school, to be honest. I procrastinate horribly, but I still love going. I don't want to work at stupidfuck jobs for the rest of my life.